1. That afternoon
there was a very special atmosphere. It was as if the air around me was filled with some
rare energy. I lay on my bed and felt very relaxed.
2. Suddenly the room became very transparent.
Everything changed into a very unusual clarity. Then, with my eyes open, a visionlike
phenomenon appeared right in front of me. First I could not see what it was, but
immediately after I saw some dots radiating light. As the light became more and more
intense, the dots began to look symmetrical. I saw them change into a form. They became
bigger. Suddenly I saw what it was: little golden flowers with minute red drops in their
hearts. The flowers radiated beautiful light around them. Then I recognized them as St.
3. I had never seen such a radiating splendour
before. It stayed there for a short while, then it started changing. The green twigs and
leaves started changing into gold. The twigs reshaped themselves into semicircles with
their opening to the sky. The red drops fused into each other and became bigger. In the
meantime, the intensity of the gold as well as the radiance of the light had grown
accordingly. How extremely beautiful this was. Suddenly I saw: the object was a Tree of
Life, a Jewish Menorha. There were the seven arms, each with a red flame at the top. I was
deeply fascinated, awfully impressed by the clarity of the vision.
4. Even then the change did not stop. It went on and
on at a slow pace. I was able to follow it easily. After the Tree of Life reached its
fullest expression, the arms became thicker and thicker. They grew towards each other.
First they touched, then they fused. All space between the arms was filled with incredibly
beautiful gold, radiating light in all directions. The energy was extremely powerful.
5. To begin with I did not recognize what it was but
shortly after it looked like a golden cup. Yes, it was a golden Chalice radiating
fascinating light all around. I had never seen anything so beautiful in my life before,
such a perfect shape, such blissful radiance. This was not a normal experience. Its nature
was definitely transcendental. Then, very slowly the Chalice started bending towards the
right and I was able to look into it a little. I knew: this was the climax. Something very
special was going to happen. Suddenly I saw. The Chalice was filled with a red
fluid...blood! It was blood! Blood came up out of the Chalice's depth and started dripping
over its edge. As the Chalice continued to bend over its side, more and more blood poured
out of it. It became a stream, yes a river of blood flowing abundantly and without
cessation. The Chalice appeared to be an Inexhaustible Source.
6. As I realized this, I was filled with deepest
emotion and gratitude. An ecstatic joy overwhelmed me. And as that happened, the vision
slowly diminished until finally it disappeared.
7. After some time the true nature of this event became
dear to me. A centuries long mystic quest had been revealed to me. The culmination
of so much effort, speculation, deception and greed had been brought back to Its Original
Purity. Yes, this was The Holy Grail. However, for me it was not the end, but the
beginning of my spiritual journey. The meaning became clear to me only much later. The
vision contained a message to the world. St.Johns Worth symbolizes "awakening";
the Menorha that of "the (Jewish) Law, symbolizing the necessity of personal
integration and the Chalice that of selflessness. These aspects are part of a
"trinity", they are related to each other. There is no awakening without
personal integration, and no personal integration without selflessness. It is a powerful
message in a time, where "awakening" and "personal growth" are
self-serving goals. Hence, the Vision being the beginning of a new era. It is laying the
foundation of new values, a new morality and a new community.
The Grail is the
Vessel symbolizing the Great Mother
The Ultimate Image
The Madonna as Manifestation of the Cosmic Womb/
The Great Mother bearing the Grail.
See: Vision of the Grail 2
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